Feelings of an Oncoming Death

Sigh. I'm probably more scared than tired. I just came home from eating out with family and had shower, then remembered that the lecturers expect 1.5h of self-study for every contact hour. Not to mention that my Thursday nights are pretty much gone because of UNSWSE (string ensemble). And two of my subjects assume CVEN1300 as knowledge  (which I am currently doing) so... I'm having feelings of an impending death :\ lol. At the same time if I drop something, I feel like I'm being a chicken; I must not fly, I must fight instead. My timetable is probably too good to change into another subject even. What's even more intimidating is that I'm learning "fundamental" stuff. It just makes me feel like screaming lol. And yes, humour and laughter is indeed my coping mechanisms.